15 sept 07: one of the lousiest day of my life (ha it's not easy to affect my mood for the whole day)
16 Sept 07: A day of reflection.. It was a day of many realisations too..
The story goes like sth happened btwn gek and myself and i was very upset. Though i'm seldom angry, but once i m things get quite ugly.. Despite the zero replies, gek continued to send me many msgs. Though i m fuming but still she chose to be very positive knowing things wouldnt be that bad.. i probably disappointed her, bcoz it was a charcoal face that she saw when we went for supper with hy. Know her too well to know that she was feeling as uncomfortable as i m. Though looking cold on the surface but deep in me i was struggling between feeling petty or to not make her feel that bad.. Sorry my fren but i chose to attend to my own feelings first..
That wasnt a great nite for her as she had a hard time smiling.. She probably didnt wanna remember it and that's y u didnt see it in the blog.. But i ll remember it for my life.
Because it taught me that no matter what, choose to attend to your feeling last. Only a selfish and self centered person will always be concern of her own feelings. How can i turn my back on someone who has always place others before herself? I am sorry to have made u feel bad.. Really sorry..
She hate peeling prawns and chopping garlic. But she made this for me. She msged and asked me not to have too high expectations on this which was prepared in a half awake state. i didnt. Because however it will taste, it will still be the most enjoyable fried rice. True enough it did not disappoint me. It was a meal that made me smile from within..She made intentional effort to go beyond her limits because of how much she value this friendship. U said u must have matter a lot to me, that's why i m so upset. But I told u dun matter much to me. That's because u mean as much as i mean to u.
Are we lesbian? No. U ve got ur deer.
20 Sept 07 - Amy
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